Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Is this thing on??

Phew.  Welcome to April.  I see grass! and crocuses! and mud!

Thank you baby Jesus.  Because if this winter didn't break soon I was going to abandon my family and head to the airport in search of flights south.

Luckily for them, such drastic measures were unnecessary.

Things are going well here in the Great Lakes...I've done some running, some biking and a swim.  Yeah, a single swim in March.  Whoops.  Fortunately for me, I'm only signed up for one sprint tri...at the END of the summer.  So there is still time to remember how to swim...right?!

What I REALLY want to do is run trails.  Bunches of trails.  I so love the sense of accomplishment that comes with running trails.  Distance doesn't matter, pace is relative.

For example, I ran a 4k trail race a couple of weeks ago.  It was hands down the hardest race I've ever done.  My HR was maxed out in the first 200m and stayed there for 33 minutes.  Yes, a 4k race that was SLOWER than my worst 5k.  It. Was. Brutal.

And so awesome.

So, I'm working around my hip issues and trying to dream huge and conservatively (is that even possible?).  With a little work and a little more luck, I'll be doing my first timed race in the fall...3 hrs.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Ride, Sally, Ride!

I am officially off my weight rant.  Done.  On to different stuff.  Happy stuff.

Like how darn awesome I feel riding on the trainer lately!

I am seriously loving every minute.  okay, almost every minute

The bike has all the potential of being my strength in triathlon and I LOVE making progress (who doesn't?).  My run is coming around too.  The build is slow and runs are now 2 miles long...PAIN FREE.  I'll be dealing with this pesky hip forever and I need to be diligent about foam rolling and stretching it.  Every day.  The sun salutations are helping with that and I'm looking to add in a bit more yoga to my life for that reason.  It's flexibility work without over stretching, which is something that I do...turns out too flexible is a problem that runs in the family.

So, I'm getting stronger and more fit and REALLY looking forward to warmer weather and triathlon season.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Well, then

After my last post (okay, rant), things fell apart.  I fell apart.  And the scale mocked me hardcore.  It should never be about the number and I can say that until I'm blue in the face, but it's still about the number.  The numbers still bother me.  Maybe because I remember hating my body at 129lbs as a high school senior when I held the school record in high jump and danced my way into a competitive dance camp.  And again at 155lbs when I finished my first marathon at age 26.  And then again when I crossed the line of my 70.3 at age 28 and 165lbs.

So now, January took its toll on me.  The stress levels were high.  Very high.  I had a job interview (and all that it entailed) that I aced, but lost for no apparent reason.  My dad had quadruple bypass surgery (he is home recovering well).

Stress that lead to old habits.  Cold weather that helped enable those bad habits.  Indulge, eat carbs, drink carbs, indulge.  Eat to suppress the fear, anxiety, failure, etc.

And why is it so hard to crave salad in the winter?!  Because salad is cold.  Winter is cold.  Pattern...

But all wasn't totally lost.  I was about 75% successful with my personal fitness challenges, turns out those hand release pushups start to get REAL hard after 15.  Squats and pistols are pretty darn easy up to 20.  1 minute planks are no problem any more.  So, success was found.  The sun shines a bit.

Going forward is all I can do.  I struggled in January.  I'm still struggling, but I am finding my way and trying to let my strength carry me instead of letting my weight get to me.

February's daily fitness challenge is burpees. Giddy up.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

I don't want to be an Athena

If there were people out there reading my blog, this would be the one that would get flamed...and that's totally fine.  You see, there's this thing about me that you should know.  I don't want to be an Athena triathlete.  I don't want to race Athena.  I don't want to qualify as an Athena.  Notice a trend?

According to USAT, if you meet certain standards you can race according to weight rather than age.

3.2 Age Group Competition.
a. All age group athletes must participate and compete in the age group division corresponding to the athlete's age on December 31 of the year of the event.
b. Weight Class Division. In events where a weight class division is different, the minimum weight shall be 220 pounds for men and 165 pounds for women, monitored by the event organizer. The weight class age categories for men and women shall be 39 years of age and under and 40 years of age and over. Participants are not eligible to complete in a weight class division and in an age group division at the same event.
Right now, and since my HIM (in 2008), I have had zero problem fitting into the Athena class division.  165?  Yeah, not hard for me to be above that.  At all.  The thing is, to many people that number is big.  Real big.  To me it's a goal weight, a bit of a stretch, but with hard work and the right NUTRITION (not diet) it is not outside the realm of possibility.  The issue has always been that I shirk away from being uncomfortable.  I really and truly enjoy food.  I also don't like feeling hungry.  No need to psycho-analyze this one; I already know where the truth lies.  
So, why do I care about the Athena division?  Frankly, I don't.  I just don't want to be able to have that option...for myself.  I just want to participate, be an age grouper and WEIGH LESS THAN 165.  I'm self conscious about my body, my mommy belly and my hips to be specific and wearing my weight on my calf (metaphorically speaking) isn't something I want to do.
At 5'9" and 171lbs, my arms are toned, I have no chest to speak of and my hips are 44".  Yeah.  Wrap your measuring tape around that for a minute.  If you look at my BMI, I'm overweight. Seriously, BMI is such a load of garbage.  But the catalyst for all of this?  I'm too big for my new Betty suit.  And that pisses me off.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

7 days and counting

2014 isn't about BIG.  It's about tweaks.  Small changes that I can latch on to, that help keep me focused.  And present if you will.

One of the things I need to keep on the front burner is strength.  Another is flexibility.  I'm not saying that I've suddenly started doing 60min of functional strength followed by hot yoga.  That would not be sustainable for me.  At all.  I would last one day.  Maybe.

Starting small is the key to sustainability for me since we all know how easy it is for me to scour ultrasignup.com and find big, scary races to sign up for (not that I've done that this year...ahem).

So every day this year (how cool is it that I can say that!) I have started my morning with sun salutations.  Not 15min worth, but 3-5 cycles through just to get a stretch first thing out of bed.  I've done them in my bedroom, in the bathroom and right there in my kitchen.  Clearly, location doesn't matter for me.  I'm not one to jump on the yoga bandwagon, classes make me want to climb the walls, but I do believe in the benefits of a deep breath and a good stretch.  Sun salutations for the win.

The other thing I've been doing every. single. day. is a strength aspect.  1min of planks, CrossFit hand release push ups, pistols (single leg squats) and squats.  The push ups, pistols, and squats match the date on the calendar.  For example, on the 1st I did one of each (woohoo, easy!).  Today is the 7th, so I did 7.  I'll continue all the way up to 31.

I don't look quite this tough...

Those are the small tweaks and I already notice a difference (not hard when you're rebuilding from nada).  One week in and things are looking up.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

2014 - the year of ?

I'm cutting it close getting these 'on paper' before the clock strikes midnight welcoming day 2 of 2014!  I wish I was more eloquent sometimes, but it is what it is folks.  Straight, no chaser.

Life goals:
Return to the work force aka give up the stay at home gig.  For many reasons too personal to list this is a big goal, a need and a terrifying endeavor.  I'm hoping lady luck is on my side...and maybe a Kleenex sponsor.

Financial goals:
I saw something ridiculously easy and obvious last year about saving that struck my fancy.  It's about matching dollars with the week number, save $1 week 1, $5 week 5, $48 week 48...you get the picture.  At the end of 52 weeks you (if you followed the $) will have $1,378.  Not bad for a year end contribution to Christmas, a vacation or an IRA.

Triathlon goals:
3 sprints.  I've decided on 2 of the 3 and am on the hunt for an early season one that fits the bill.  I haven't run in 10 weeks and may already be biting off more than my run legs can chew, but I know that my body can cover a 5k at some speed.  Rather than sign up for a full aquabike (which may or may not have crossed my mind...repeatedly), I'm keeping it short and sweet so that I can accommodate all aspects of my life.

Running goals:
Run.  Seriously, just being able to go out for a run without thinking about it will be pretty damn awesome.  I am going to run a 4k trail race in late March and a 5k on the 4th of July.  Everything else is wait and see.

Specific and Measurable goals:
34 miles of swimming (I should probably get in the water)
500 miles of outdoor biking
Ride Around Torch 'race' - 27 mile distance
20 hrs on the trainer before my birthday in March
Yoga once a week

And the obvious:
Stronger, thinner, richer...

But most of all, be present and act with purpose.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Focus and Perspective...WAKE UP!

2013 was not a stellar year for the blog and reflected a general malaise in real life.  That stuck feeling mixed with frenetic emotions.  2013 just kind of was and frankly, that's kind of sad.  Not every moment of every year should be epic, but there should be something that stands out and for now I can't pin point one single thing on the positive (aside from the general, yay I did a triathlon again and yay I'm mostly happy and YAY the husband and I have been married 10 wonderful years).

So, instead of just being for another year my resolution for 2014 is to wake up and BE PRESENT.

Tomorrow I'll post my 2014 goals.  None of them have that big time feel, but they either make me smile or light a fire in my belly and that is exactly what my world needs this coming year.